I love the things I overhear in coffee shops by high school girls. I was never like that in high school (promiscuous). Thank the Lord.
Thank you guys SO much for all of your input on counseling. It seems like it would be a good thing to try out and at least see if I like it or not. I’m just a little weary because I’m going to the counseling offered on my campus through the school. I hate to see my parents spend even more money than they already do, so I’ll get to go for free. Although my mother expressed she does not care about money for anything which has to do with my health, I just feel if it’s there… Why not take advantage of it? There are two things I’m worrying about, though, with going to counseling on campus:
1.) If any of my professors/classmates see me go in the counseling center, I do not want them to think I’m crazy. Although, lets be real, I am pretty crazy.
2.) These counselors see SO many people and it’s just “batches” of students. Are they really going to try and make a good relationship during the sessions?
Just some things to think about, I guess.
Lately, I’ve been doing pretty good with the whole increasing calories… Except it’s more of bingeing episodes which end in tears. I don’t know why I just eat like hell (too much) right before I go to bed even if I eat like hell (alot of good meals) during the day. I mean, I used to binge at night because I barely ate anything during the day but now it’s just bingeing to…………… I’ll never know, I guess. It just makes me upset because then I can’t sleep because my metabolism is going full force. This isn’t good when you have two mid-terms the next day and you get about 4 hours of sleep. Hmm. I think I need to incorporate more substance foods earlier in the day, then eat something like yogurt or cereal at night? I was eating frozen greek yogurt + pumpkin + protein powder… I became a big fan of the homemade fro-yo since there is no fro-yo places within a 100 mile radius.
*[Insert Snooki, "WAH."]
Oh, and for the first time ever I ate Starbucks oatmeal. I have never ordered food from Starbucks. I had a little packet of PB&Co peanut butter [Yummm], so I got oatmeal, dried fruit, PB, and used Starbuck’s cinnamon to incorporate my favorite spiceee. So, uhhh, why didn’t anyone tell me how PATHETIC Starbucks oatmeal is? Seriously? My bowl of oatmeal could eat that bowl of oatmeal as a midnight snack. I opened the nice little container it comes in to realize it was about 1/4 full of watery oatmeal. Epic fail, Starbucks. Epic fail.
I made these oatmeal bars the other day with leftover nanners. I found the recipe on my beloved P-Interest <3. All you do is mix…
-2 1/2 cup oats
-3 mashed bananas
-1/3 cup honey
-1/3 cup applesauce
-1 tablespoon cinnamon (my change)
*Mix wet, mix dry, mix oats. Bake @ 350 in 8×8 until top is slightly browned. (20-25 minutes)
*Or you can make cookies! But I made bars and ate half of the dish in one night. No exaggeration.
*Top with peanut butter, of course.
SO DELICIOUS! Mine are already gone :-X
This weekend is Fall Break for my college but I can’t go home because, well, my appearance isn’t going to be acceptable to my parents. I’m not going home until I gain some weight which just upsets me. I want Wawa Pumpkin Spice coffee. I think they actually have the COFFEE instead of the sugar-coma cappuccino which makes me want to go home even more.. Sigh. I’ll be here by myself all weekend. WHY DID I CUT FAT OUT OF MY DIET?! I want to go home and bake my family cookies, go to Wawa, and spend time with my friends. But nope, staying here. I was thinking of going to D.C. by myself as a little “Me” time. I read a magazine recently about someone who traveled by themselves to just get away and “find themselves”. Since I can’t afford to take a random road trip (nor do I have time with classes), I think maybe I’ll just take a day and go explore D.C. If my knee allows me to, anyway. I’ve been thinking about going a lot of places just to get away. Sit and think. But, maybe a therapist would be more efficient.
Any places to hit up if I go to D.C.?
Specifically the best of everything (fro-yo, pancakes, vegetarian, bakery, shops, etc.)
Do you ever take roadtrips to clear your mind?
When I went through something in high school (sparked running/healthier eating), I took a drive every single day. It was my time… And sometimes I think it saved my life because it was the only time during the day I was actually at ease with everything which was going on. The only time my mind was, well, free.